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[mightbeconcussed]

[There's a significant pause and then a spitting sound.]

Okay so truth time. I love that buzzed, hyper, omg everything is amazing feeling that six shots of espresso in a latte gives you.

The truth part? It tastes like crap and that makes me sad.

[And another significant pause]

Sometimes, I buy a pair of shoes and realize I have a pair at home that looks almost like the pair I just bought but that new shoe high just makes it impossible for me to say no. And yes, I've had months when I ate ramen and didn't pay the light bill because new shoes are my addiction.

[ooc: She's cursed to tell the truth today no matter what she's asked.]

Comments

[sempreadagio.livejournal.com]

Does he give you the warm fuzzies when you talk or see each other? Do you get Baby Jesus fuzzies?

[mghtbconcussed.livejournal.com]

I totally get warm fuzzies just talking about talking to him or seeing him. [She's facepalming here.] And that is such a bad, bad sign. I totally get Baby Jesus fuzzies.

I'm so screwed, Jill. One of these days he's going to realize he can date a sane girl and a good girl and he's going to break my heart. You remember the Jackass that shall not be named. I don't think I can do that again.

[sempreadagio.livejournal.com]

Baby Jesus fuzzies are a good thing. And that's why you shouldn't stay away from him.

And maybe... I don't know, he seems so nice... maybe you should give him a little more credit.

[mghtbconcussed.livejournal.com]

I am giving him credit. I mean, I know he's probably not going to do what Jackass did and I'm a lot more careful about the pregnant thing. Also I have it on good authority I can't get pregnant this way so yay birth control. Anyway...I know he wouldn't do that but I can't blame him if he meets nice and sane and pretty and decides he'd rather be there.

[sempreadagio.livejournal.com]

And no one can tell the future which leaves you taking a leap of faith... which I know is scary. But you're brave, Lucy. You've always been brave in things like this.

[mghtbconcussed.livejournal.com]

I'm trying> I think I'm looking for a bridge to kind of span the whole leap of faith thing.

I think...maybe Neil will give it to me. The...bridge. Not that I know what else I'd be talking about.

I'm really scared.

[sempreadagio.livejournal.com]

Well add some happy in with that scared since you found such a nice guy and maybe the happy will eventually take over the scared.

[mghtbconcussed.livejournal.com]

There is happy. There is lots of happy when he's around but sometimes the happy works against me 'cause it makes me so much more afraid of losing it. Not that I want miserable but miserable wouldn't be as hard to lose, you know?

[sempreadagio.livejournal.com]

I don't know, you can still get attached to miserable when it's what you've got.

[mghtbconcussed.livejournal.com]

See! Attached is bad and it's hard and I should probably go back to not talking to him. It'd be better in the long run for both us, you know? He'd get less crazy girl in his life and I'd guarantee that I'll never get hurt again.

[sempreadagio.livejournal.com]

Attached is not always bad. Attached makes you human even if it can be both good and bad. I'm attached to you.

[mghtbconcussed.livejournal.com]

Yeah, but you're never going to leave me or break my heart.

[sempreadagio.livejournal.com]

Well you never know... okay, I can't even jokingly say that. No, I'm not.

Baby Jesus just doesn't seem the breaking heart type. But if you're seriously getting that vibe from him... I don't know, maybe it is best to play it safe. You have to trust your instincts to an extent.

[mghtbconcussed.livejournal.com]

That's the ting...I'm not getting that vibe from him. I'm getting the opposite vibe from him and I think that makes it more scary.

[sempreadagio.livejournal.com]

I get it, I do. But you have to be fair to him too. I mean what if someone assumed the same of you without any reason behind it?

[mghtbconcussed.livejournal.com]

[Jill has a point. All of Lucy's reasons for not dating Neil seriously have to do with the fear she'll end up hurt. She hasn't really given much thought to the whole idea, what if he doesn't break her heart.]

I...think you're right.

[sempreadagio.livejournal.com]

Really? I mean, yeah I am. Of course I'm right. Be happy with Baby Jesus.

[mghtbconcussed.livejournal.com]

It's just...he's not like Jackass and he's not like Harry so I guess I shouldn't expect him to be and that's kind of what I've been doing. It's scary but you think I should try, right?